Something interesting happened at work today. As I was conversing with
a fellow associate about what they should do in their current situation
(in relevance to relationships and some small financial matters) they
stopped me...
That person asked me why are you so good at
helping others and you know everything to say at the right moment but
everytime I see you it seems that you're troubled or disturbed mentally
or in deep thought or either just downright depressed and if anything
just apathetic most of the time if you don't have those headphones in
your head? It seems like nothing just will ever go your way no matter
how faithful you are to someone or how honest you are and how
respectful you are...how do you maintain that type of composure even
though everything just falls down everyday on you?
At first I
didn't really know what to say. As the person elaborated on and on I
decided to elaborate just a tad bit on basically how to cope but not to
much because that wouldn't be me. I elaborated just enough to show a
scratch of the surface of my situation.
This person stopped me
again when I was just about through with explaining and told me
something else. This person told me that no matter how self-sufficient
I am and how much I sit and ponder alone then solve my issues myself
there is going to be that day when I just breakdown and everything
comes out...and who's there to hear you out is completely depending on
the actions I make now. I hear that a lot so I wasn't phased but as I
reflect upon my past a bit I think to myself....
I have to
end this now. I am still a bit perplexed due to some other abstract
thoughts and new matters thrown at me to dwell in thought over my hours
of "Sleep" so I guess I'll finish this another time. Peace kids.
